call me by the name i know
the dark's a place i didn't want to call home
throw away boxes of old clothes
pictures fade into the space i don't want to follow.
silent judgment all the words i've ever said
the hell i've made that lives behind my eyelids
fall in love with fantasies of life and death
regret so many things in the life i've lived.
cut my ties and burn my bridges
forgive me please cause i know i'll miss this.
some have god and some have faith
all i have are memories of better days
she said forgive yourself and you won't feel alone
but i never believed in prayer or got on my knees for some holy ghost.
saw the casket and i thought about death
walking down the aisle in a church that i never set foot in
left that day wishing that it'd been me
because she had so much to give and i have nothing.